When I’m tired I usually paint quite dark illustrations. This was the case.
Just before leaving to the seaside I felt I have to throw this out of me. So I’ve made those paintings, portraits of women drowning in shadows.
Technque is just parker ink on a brush, with a little of water. Used just like watercolor.
Usually when I paint on square pieces of paper, there are many leftovers after cutting the page.
Below I’m presenting illustrations I’ve made to recycle those scraps.
I’m counting days to my vacations. We’re going to the seaside, me with lots of ideas for drawings.
I’ll eat, I’ll read, I’ll drink wine.
Nothing’s gonna stop me.
Lately I took 3 days of “vacations” from work. I was exhausted, really tired, so I went to my parents countryside house.
First two nights I had nightmares, I guess somehow all the stress had to come out of me.
I didn’t paint a lot, I took some thriller book with me and spent this time on hammock reading. Also it was first time for a while when I could read a WHOLE newspaper. Yup, all pages.
But my state of tired mind produced these two images that you can see below. It illustrates the place I’m in right now. Need some changes.
Always got this feeling of unknown danger when it comes to nature.
Each time close contact with forest or sea or lake brings me to the edge where fascination connects with the fear.
It’s huge, it’s strong, it defeats us, it’s beyond our silly cities, silly cars, silly box- apartaments, silly problems. It’s ruthless, silent, not interested in our matters.
Death, birth, mystery, cruelty and beauty.
Nothing made by human can compare to a mountain.
Once I was camping in Alpes, on the edge of the clif, where you couldn’t see a single light of man’s presence. Sky with stars seemed to try to crush us. It was beyond any control.
So one day I thought about all the stereotypes that come with the same sex couples.
The truth is you see lesbians mostly in pornographic materials or as some kind of caricature of a woman (same way you imagine a feminist).
On one side we have complete sexualisation and vulgarisation of the subject, on the other.. well you know what I mean.
If you want’t to see some tasteful lesbian (or wider- homosexual) erotic pictures, drawings and so on, you really have to google it hard. On your way some nasty stuff can really rape your eyes.
So I wanted to show something different- INTIMACY. How you are with the other person when you’re close, you’re couple or a romance.
A kiss is something between spiritual world and sexual side of relationship.
So here it is. A kiss. So natural for heterosexual couple, so forbidden when it comes to public affection of homosexual women together.
Drawing these illustrations was a continuation of some other project, which I’ll show you later.